For those of you that keep up with my journey towards mommyhood: I had a very critical doctor's appointment last week. He finally concluded that the FOUR medications that I am on, is not going to cut it. (I suspected this from the beginning.) It has been a year and a half of TTC and a year on meds with no improvement. So we decided that what is basically exploratory laparoscopic surgery is needed to figure out what is wrong. They will be looking for multiple problems, and if they find anything they will most likely be able to fix them that day. SO, this cycle we are taking a break. :D
I am still very cautious about who I am sharing my heart with these days. I have learned that the majority of people do not and will not understand what we are going through. That is okay. However, I will not set myself up to be hurt by being completely open about my feelings, (as I once was). But, I will not be surprised when people unknowingly hurt me with their innocent comments.
The Lord and I are making amends. I continue to be disappointed in how far I have drifted from Him. My heart is not in the kind of condition it needs to be in to hear Him speak. He woke me up early the other day and I struggled to listen for just minutes at a time. I was very frustrated with myself and my inability to focus.
All of this to say: Please continue to pray for our desire for a child. Please pray for my surgery to go well (March 9). And please join me in becoming more disciplined in my walk with the Lord.
