Inconceivable

I know that this is all I have blogged about, but it has consumed my life for now, so if you are tired of hearing about it, know that I am tired of dealing with it also. :)

I hate how this is such a taboo topic. No one talks about it like it's normal which makes it so much more isolating. I was looking online at some infertility books and as I read the reviews, I found out that I am not the only one that feels alone in this season. Many reviews shared about how the books make them realize that they aren't the only ones that are going through this. (The ironic thing is that I went to Barnes & Noble in Lubbock to purchase one of the books and they did not have a single book on infertility. The fact that the biggest book store in Lubbock didn't have anything on the topic, only reinforced the feeling of isolation. Evidently, literature on infertility is not in high enough demand for B&N to carry the books in store.) Even though I know that others have experienced this, it doesn't do my any good unless I can hear from them and learn from them. However, no one talks about how they had difficulty conceiving if they eventually have a baby. Their struggle ends and so does the chapter, or so they would have you believe. I refuse to pretend like this isn't changing me and my life, not just now, but forever. I pray that the Lord will use our testimony in some way. I don't know His plan, but I know He works for the good of those who love Him. I pray that our story will bring Him glory in some way and WHEN we have children, I will be here waiting to help other women that need an ear to listen and an empathizing heart.