Waiting

Waiting.
Hoping.
Praying.
Wanting what I cannot have
Ungrateful for the things I do.

Bitterness creeps,
Dispair seeks,
Loneliness keeps
Me from seeking the only one who's keeping
Me from burning.

Scared.
Uninspired.
Tired.
Tired of being a being
That doesn't worship her creator.

Not seeing,
Not feeling,
But believing,
That He has not abandoned me
In the midst of my perceived tragedy.

Turning.
Yearning.
Learning,
That the damage I've caused to our relationship
Will take surrender, obedience, and patience...

More waiting
More hoping
More praying,
For something worth more than my request.
In the presence of my Savior I am blessed.